01/01/22
It is the new year. Last night we had a lot of fun. I am trying my best to keep a positive mindset but I just feel like he is trying to act like nothing happened. Something major happened though. The craziest thing is I literally let him do whatever he wants. He went and had a guys weekend right when we had a newborn baby, plays the game, spend money on dumb stuff if we have it, like he does whatever he wants to do. Somehow I am still the bad guy though. Somehow I am the one that gets cheated on though. Somehow I am the one who gets talked shit about and name gets ran through the mud. Like I said, this is the new year and it is time to think and be more positive. If he ends up messing up again then I will have no choice but to leave. It is time to move forward this year and focus on bettering this marriage. I know we can do it and I know it will get better. This year is about our family and achieving all of our goals.
“Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future.”
-Paul Boose
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