Never Saw this Coming

12/29/21

Whew, are we starting off with the heavy stuff. I truly never saw this coming. Who would of thought that my world could turn upside down with just a single conversation between them. I found out my husband was texting someone else. Telling this girl he loves her and wants to be with her. Talking badly about me, about our marriage. He says he didn’t mean any of it. Is that supposed to make me feel better? Is that supposed to make the pain go away? That ”it didn’t mean anything”. I never thought in a million years he would do this to me. My heart is truly broken. My mind is all over the place. I told him I forgive him and give him another chance. Its just so hard to push it behind me. Why would he do this to me? Is he that unhappy? I know we are going through a rough patch right now but I would never do that to him, I would never do what he did. I just cant stop randomly crying. He says he’s sorry but I just don’t even know if I can believe him. Will I ever be able to trust him again? He’s supposed to be my best friend, my husband. The person who I feel the most safe with. I feel like I don’t even know him anymore. We both have been through horrible relationships in the past and we both have been cheated on, but I guess that doesn’t matter. I truly don’t know what to do or think. I love him more than anything and really want this marriage to work. It’s starting to seem like I am the only one.

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